Goldrush blog, Trishawna, Lavender Locks, dyed hair
When I was 17, I painted my room the perfect shade of icy lavender, undoubtably my favorite color at the time. When graduation rolled around, friends and relatives asked my mom what they should get me; the only directive she gave was "she loves lavender." 
Not surprisingly, I was showered with gifts of towels, blankets, rugs, and every other dorm decoration imaginable, ALL in a very familiar shade of lavender. By the time I left the dorms two years later, I was no longer calling lavender my favorite.  In fact, I never wanted to see it again.*
Most people have a consistent favorite color throughout their lives, but I switch it up. Perhaps it has something to do with being a designer. It's never a conscious decision, I usually identify my new favorite when my designs at work begin to be a bit heavy-handed in that color.  It was apparent last winter when my boss forbid me from coloring anymore prints predominantly in mauve. This spring when my boss encouraged me to lay off the purple, it caught me off-guard.  Nearly horrified, I thought "Am I into PURPLE?" I knew for sure lavender had found me again when, while shopping, a friend observed my penchant for all things a muted shade of purple.
In July the ends of my hair turned bright green in a hot tub (I wrote about it here, but nobody believed me). Although it was an accident, it was my gateway to experimenting with unnatural hAIr cOLoRs. As the hot tub dye job faded, I contemplated what color I would do next. The answer was easy, I had to do my favorite.**
Goldrush blog, Trishawna, Lavender Locks, dyed hair
I told my friend Kelsi I was going lavender. She told me she wished the hair dye was scented, I assume because lavender oil has calming qualities...
I'd like it to smell like a grape scratch-n-sniff sticker.
Goldrush blog, Trishawna, Lavender Locks, dyed hair
This hair makes me feel like a My Little Pony™, and that's what I always wanted to be when I grew up. 
Goal attained.
Goldrush blog, Trishawna, Lavender Locks, dyed hair
Tikki Little Pony is wearing...Hat: Anthropologie, Kimono top: Frances May in Portland, OR, 
Skirt: reborn vintage dress by Tikki, Floral Shoes: Topshop
Hair by Farel Martinez @ Chinchilla Salon in Silverlake. He's the best, y'all.
(And for all of you concerned about my debtbusting, I budgeted for this.)
*If you gave me one of those lavender gifts, just know I loved it at the time.
**I'm sure my parents are hoping my favorite color will be blonde very, very soon.  I'm predicting tattoo green...uh-oh.
Photos by @aubreyswander


Denim Billboard

denim, jean jacket, bleach, shopgoldrush, tie dye
The other day at lunch my friend Britt implored me to be my own advertisement for my clothes. She said I should be wearing the clothes I make everywhere and talking about them all the time.  I've been keeping the things I make neatly tucked away in a side closet until someone buys them and haven't made anything for myself. Her words inspired me to get busy on the denim jacket I promised myself.
You see, I've been craving a denim jacket, but I haven't been able to justify buying the one I want for $100+ when 1) I am on a tight debtbuster's budget, and 2) I am constantly making things out of denim.  So for the last couple months I've had my eye out for a denim jacket under $8 I could modify using my SKILLZZZ.
I finally found this oversized denim barn jacket for $1 (no lie) a few weeks ago. It was the perfect shade of dark blue for me to go to town with my bleach. When I bought it thought I would use it for material for a Shopgoldrush product, but with the encouragement from my friend to do some shameless self-promotion, I chose to shape it into an Trishawna-sized billboard for my clothes.  
I did a special prayer of bleach blessing over it as I dunked it in the tub. What came out was nothing short of electrifying. It looks like a freaking lightning strike. Even I, the bleach monster, have never seen anything like it. 
After the blessed bleaching I fitted that very large jacket to my body, taking in the side seams four inches on each side and completely reshaping the armhole. Voila!...My very own designer jacket. 
I will probably have this jacket on my body 100% of the minutes until the weather turns cold enough to warrant warmer layers.  If you compliment me on it I will tell you all about it, in my 30 second plug for the clothes I make. You may even get a business card. And if you find yourself caught in my sales pitch, just give me a triple wink and stick out your tongue in a westerly direction.  That will be our secret signal so I know that you know about my $1 jacket I made into a $200 jacket on bleach & a prayer (and a fair amount of tailoring).
Denim, jean jacket, Los Angeles, bleach, tie dye, Trishawna, shopgoldrush, the goldrush blog
Denim, jean jacket, Los Angeles, bleach, tie dye, Trishawna, shopgoldrush, the goldrush blog
Denim, jean jacket, Los Angeles, bleach, tie dye, Trishawna, shopgoldrush, the goldrush blog
Denim, jean jacket, Los Angeles, bleach, tie dye, Trishawna, shopgoldrush, the goldrush blog
Denim, jean jacket, Los Angeles, bleach, tie dye, Trishawna, shopgoldrush, the goldrush blog
Go ahead, ask me about my jacket.
Denim, jean jacket, Los Angeles, bleach, tie dye, Trishawna, shopgoldrush, the goldrush blog
I'm ready with my sales pitch in case there happens to be a passerby.
Denim, jean jacket, Los Angeles, bleach, tie dye, Trishawna, shopgoldrush, the goldrush blog
Denim, jean jacket, Los Angeles, bleach, tie dye, Trishawna, shopgoldrush, the goldrush blog
Ya, no problem, you can touch my sleeve. Let me give you a business card.
Denim, jean jacket, Los Angeles, bleach, tie dye, Trishawna, shopgoldrush, the goldrush blog
Standing like a billboard in the wind.
Denim, jean jacket, Los Angeles, bleach, tie dye, Trishawna, shopgoldrush, the goldrush blog
Besides the denim billboard, Tikki is wearing...
Scarf: from a little shop in Bangalore, India
The most-fun-dress-in-the-world: The tag says "Anne Valerie Hash" but I got it as a hand-me-down from my boss during my fast.
Carpet Shoes: Kimchi Blue from UO, a birthday gift from my besty

Photos by Jaclyn Burke
(Biggg thanks, Jax!!)


The Impossible List: Dare to Dream

dream the impossible dream, fight the unbeatable foe, Trishawna, Goldrush
A year ago this week, after reaching my 5-year mark in Los Angeles and feeling only disappointment, I sat down to write a list of things I want to do that seemed impossible in that moment. I wrote the list in faith, asking the Lord to come into these dreams and put His own lavish spin on them. (I don't think dreams are placed in our hearts to break them, I believe they are there to push us into our destiny, even if some of the dreams aren't actualized.)

The most important thing about making "the impossible list" was choosing to believe these things could happen, although in my (then) current circumstances they all seemed unfeasible. I wrote them down, no longer letting myself live under the shadow of the impossible.  I don't know if I would have had the courage to write the list if it wasn't for some words the Lord clearly spoke to me a few weeks prior. 

spiritual interlude----cue hymn

On that night I was reading the passage in Matthew 5 when Jesus talked about not putting new wine into old wineskins.  Today this concept is a little foreign to us, but in Biblical times it was well-known that new wine expands; if a winemaker puts new wine into wineskins that have already stretched and become brittle, the wineskins will burst. 
New wine + Old wineskins = Waste of Vino  
Jesus said this in reference to religious people whose rigid hearts couldn't expand to hear his revolutionary, freedom-giving teaching.  They preferred comfort of the known to the freedom of the unknown.

I felt like the Lord led me to that passage that night so I asked, "Is there something specific here for me?" 

He told me I had this same rigidity in the area of money.  I was not trusting Him in this area, and my view of how to make money was very narrow. Then He said he had lots more creative ways for me to make money.  Those few words, although convicting, have set me free.  

---fade hymn---

Those are the words that gave me the courage to write the list of the impossible, because I believed The Lord was backing me to do bigger things. Here are some items from the list:
(Basically I'm letting you read my extremely personal prayer journal, so feel privileged.  My current comments are written in wine in honor of the wineskin verses.)

1) I would like to do this roadtrip across the US with Colin or someone else.  I'm leaving that open, holding the when and with whom loosely.  I would like to make it a curiosity trip.  I would love to meet new people and experience their worlds, not just stay in hotels or make it a utilitarian trip across the US from here to there.  I want to go on an adventure. 
Check.  Did that last November the Colinator and wouldn't mind going on the road again...

2) Too dang personal.

3) I would like to pay off all my debt and not be a slave to any institution.
Well, lookie here, that is my current goal.  #DEBTBUSTER

4) For my eyes only.

5) Sorry, not sharing that one either.

6) Ha, you wish.

7) None of your beeswax.

8) I'll tell you when it's about to happen.

9) I want to write a book.
Yes, and I want to write it in 2014. I'm a little (a lot) behind, but I believe I can still make some great progress.

10) I want to have a successful blog, that influences people on music, style, & spiritual matters and always brings joy and laughter.  I am tired of talking about this, I just really need to do it.
Look at me, ma, I AM DOING IT.  Okay, I haven't reached the "successful" part of that dream, but I'm doing the work.  One of my wonderful friends, who is a comedian and often speaks cynically, wrote me a text the other day to tell me my blog fills him with joy. It's happening. 

11) I would like to have a pocket pal, a tiny human who fits inside my pocket. Must be under 7" tall and bilingual.
Sadly, I'm nowhere near this goal. 

end of list.

I found this list this last week while I was waivering on a big decision; I was looking for it to find insight on how I want to move forward. I was somewhat pleased to find I was reading it almost a year to the day I penned it.  I'm sharing it with you to celebrate some of my "impossible" dreams coming true. Sometimes what we see as impossible is is absolutely possible if we change our perspectives. Some of the items on my list, like #5 and even #6*, are laughably simple to others but not so easy for me. And in another year I will be able to declare that more of the once-insurmountable dreams are a reality.

I encourage you to make your own list of the impossible and invite God into it. You may will be surprised at what happens.

*Ha, made-ya-look.


The Bagstory // Denim Reborn

Denim, process, the-making-of, etsy
Getting the jeans ready for bleaching.
I am still obsessed with denim, and I don't think my passion for it will go away anytime soon. I hunt for it at thrift stores & flea markets, I forced my parents to bring me boxes of it from their attic when they drove out from Nebraska, and I dream about it at night...*

As I've said previously on Goldrush, my philosophy for the goods I make is to create new, sought-after items from discarded materials.  Denim is an amazing material to reuse because jeans, whether well-loved or barely broken-in, contain a personality I can capture in my designs. The other day I was telling a friend about the process of making the bags, and before I could stop them, the words, "I let the jeans speak to me," fell out of my mouth. Yes, it sounds corny in that mystically pretentious way, but it's actually true.  I don't just cut every bag the same; I pay careful attention to the details of each pair of jeans to retain the original character when I shape them into something new.
The jeans just after the bleach process.
I've made three tote bags now for my shop. Each was made with one side from a single pair of reused jeans that I've bleached using tie dye methods. The reverse side is cut from another reborn item.  The tote below has a polka dot lining from a repurposed dress and recycled suede for the handles.    
Each of the totes is one-of-a-kind.  
The finished product // denim side
The finished product // recycled dot side
Available on Etsy at ShopGoldrush.
*Since I like to do things in year increments (first there was the shopping fast, now there is debtbusting...) next year may be 365 daze of denim. I'll even have denim pajamas and change my name to Jean. 



Shop Goldrush has a few new items...
and they are totes rad.
Denim, bleached denim, tote, purse, bag, reversible bag, Trishawna
Reversible Tote // Bleached Denim & Polka Dots // Reborn Materials
Pocket with Exposed Zipper // Suede Straps // $62
Denim, bleached denim, tote, purse, bag, reversible bag, Trishawna
It's two bags in one, but don't be fooled, your friend can't borrow the polka dot side when you're using the denim side.  It doesn't work that way.
Denim, bleached denim, tote, purse, bag, reversible bag, Trishawna
Here's the ACTUAL second bag...
Denim, bleached denim, tote, purse, bag, reversible bag, Trishawna
Reversible Tote  // Bleached Denim & Splatter Print // Reborn Materials
Pocket with Exposed Zipper // Neon Detail // $62
I'll say it again: this looks like two different bags, but only one side can be used at a given moment. Carry only one-bag's-worth of things at a time!*
Denim, bleached denim, tote, purse, bag, reversible bag, Trishawna
Like I said, It's totes rad.  I can't even handle it.**
These bags and other SUNBLEACHED items available on Etsy at Shop Goldrush.
*This bag is reversible, but back problems are irreversible.
**Actually, it's easy to handle because it has 2 sturdy straps.