Upon closer examination I understood the reason for this civil war between my actions and my emotions.
Once I begin the new chapter of Goldrush, I will be working double time** to create content for the blog. This impending schedule has left me troubled over when I will have time to write the book about my shopping fast, which was my motivation for starting this blog in the first place. The 1-year fast ended last June, and I don't want too much time to pass before I record the full story.
To put first things first, I've decided to take the next 2 months to write the tale of my fast before going full-throttle into the next adventure. This decision brings me peace and issues a deadline to get some proper chapters written. When I resume blogging it will be with an attitude of hope & anticipation, not of imminent doom. And we all must agree, that's a much better state of mind.
Can't wait to see you on the other side!
*Dare I say those naughty words?
**There's a hint to the new direction for Goldrush in that phrase. In time you will understand, my children.
ps Those of you to whom I owe my LOVE or my HEART pillows, I have been busy working on them all weekend.